Author: yarrow

As I begin writing this post I’m a day shy of one whole year since the day I consider myself to have begun my recovery from anorexia. I wanted to share some reflections and thoughts on what I’ve experienced this past year – what helped, what didn’t, how things have changed and where I’m at… Continue reading Recovery: A Year On

I’ve written before about exercise on this blog, last time discussing the relationship and association between exercise and virtue – as in, the idea that to exercise is necessarily always virtuous and how this harms people with a disordered or difficult relationship to it. When I last wrote about exercise I was struggling intensely with… Continue reading Exercise and the body

In a lot left-aligned and liberal spaces discussing the topics of fatphobia, eating disorders, body confidence/postivity there is often some sage advice about ‘listening to your body’ as in, paying attention to what your body seems to be telling you and trying to respond to that in some way. There is an idea that paying… Continue reading ‘Listen to your body’ – capitalism, alienation and embodiment

When I wanted to try and recover, more or less by myself, I looked in a lot of places for support. Of course, to my partners and friends but I also looked for people who had also had my experiences and could explain to me or, at least, understand what the hell is going on… Continue reading Social media and recovery

TW: explicit discussion of disordered thoughts There are many competing narratives when it comes to understanding what it means to ‘recover’ from an eating disorder. There’s a term that gets thrown around in online eating disorder recovery spaces, that is; ‘quasi recovery’. Usually this means something like making an attempt to recover but still participating… Continue reading What quasi-recovery feels like

It makes sense to write about the intersections I’m currently living within; that of genderqueer (yes, I still use this even though it’s quite passe nowadays), bisexual and disabled. It makes sense yet I’ve felt I didn’t have much to say on it that wasn’t haltingly embarrassing or actually made any real sense. Trying to… Continue reading Gender, sexuality, weight and desire

Perfectionism, in the most basic terms, is the drive towards ‘perfection’ in all that one does or in the tasks or accomplishments one strives for. It often involves setting a high bar for oneself, measuring one’s self-worth via productivity and setting perhaps unrealistic goals. A lot of the time people think of perfectionism as a… Continue reading Perfectionism

CW: some discussion of eating disorder behaviours (no numbers), sexism in medical context I was diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) three years ago in 2018. I was 26 years old, an adult, and had struggled for a long time. I had suspected I might be autistic for some time, though many of my peers… Continue reading Anorexia co-morbidities: Autism and OCD

Everyone seems to have an opinion on veganism and why they chose to follow it or not. It brings up a number of related issues including diet and lifestyle as well as the obvious animal rights and environmentalism. As I see it there are two somewhat distinct forms of veganism that have emerged in the… Continue reading Eating Disorders and Veganism

TW: discussion of eating disorder behaviours I have a lot of clued up friends with a lot to say about disability politics and a lot of what I’ll say here has been drawn out in dialogue, not necessarily something I’ve come to entirely on my own. My own thinking is, of course, around eating disorders… Continue reading On Disability